Hello I am currently 10 days sober from being a functioning alcoholic /alcohol dependant for over a decade.
It began in Uni as I have suffered from social anxiety and it was needed to “ fit in” so to speak.
Throughout the years I managed to snap a small bottle of brandy to work daily just to show confidence daily and then have a few tequila or a pint on the way home to pick up my son. My relationship with him has never wavered nor has he gone without. My tolerance has been built up so high it’s concerning.
i got pregnant again last year June and was able to stop straight away without question, thankfully finding out in the early weeks.
As I was able to stop I did not believe I had a problem. Then post partum kicked in and I have been having a bottle or a couple of beers daily for the past 6 months. My baby girl is thriving however now my health has suffered. For some reason I do not understand why it did not register that this could well and truly effect my health someday.
i have seen the GP and done blood work done, thankfully my liver function etc is well. I believe it is because I stayed sober during pregnancy which probably saved me and cut down to wine instead of spirits post partum.
i am still feeling weak and that sk down to B1 being low but I am staying hopeful that I will get better as I have been prescribed thamin and taking supplements.
i am 100% ready to change and be beauty. I know 12 years of heavy drinking is terrible. What I want to know is has anyone done the same came out of the other side and is seeming healthy a couple years down the line? My anxiety is sky high, worrying about all the ways I’ve damaged my body. Worried if I have damaged my organs- brain, heart, etc worried if even wake up after falling asleep one day. I am worried I won’t see my baby girl or older son grow up as I won’t live long. I am 100% done with alcohol - I just hope it isn’t too late. I want to live.
please be kind. Thank you