Need a bit of a handhold please.
He's now looking to help himself - not going to go massively into the details as I'm sure you've all been there - but I'm wrecked from the blame game - I've got no confidence left, I'm physically exhausted, depressed and in a dark place. Before coming to an awareness he blamed me for everything. He's now apologised and is sorry, his drinking was stress related and he would black out so he didn't know what he was doing. He's also autistic so a bit slower on the self awareness scale.
He's moved into the spare room last week so I'm getting some distance from him whilst he fixes himself but I'm just worn out from it all.
I've got to rebuild myself but all I want to do is to lie in bed (I have bad sciatica now) and to eat junk food. I've gone into a right bloody slump. I've got loads of work I have to do which I'm doing whilst trying to pick myself up off the floor.