Please help, pregnancy and past alcohol issues

[BeNewbo]

Hello,


I’m new here, just looking for some advice/ reassurance/ support.

Im a 33 year old, married, professional, I have a fantastic family and a stable married.

Heres the background,

I have suffered for several years with poor mental health. In 2018 I was admitted in to a special care unit due to constant self harming.
in june 2021, I suffered a miscarriage ( I was unaware I was pregnant) but as it seemed “one of those things” I decided to deal with it alone. This resulted in an epic decline, alcohol issues to the point of passing out, more self harm, relationship break down and eventually, in September, I had a stroke, losing the sight in one eye.

Current situation:
After several months of medication and therapy, I’m happy to say my mental health is vastly improved. I have a good support network and my drinking is under control, having days off but usually have a 1 or 2 medium wines a night.

I have just found out that I am 9.5 weeks pregnant and I am TERRIFIED that I might have caused damage to my unborn child, through both my regular drinking and past ill treatment of myself.

Please help me, I would rather die than think think I’ve caused damage to something that means so much.

Xx

[Runnerbeansflower]

I think you have to let the past go, and not beat yourself up. Easier said than done!

I have no medical expertise so can't answer your question, but I am not sure it's the right question right now.

Now you know you are pregnant look after yourself, for your sake as well as your baby.

You can't change what is done, you can provide the best possible care from here on. That's the best focus now.

Congratulations on your pregnancy!

[BeNewbo]

Thank you @Runnerbeansflower I really appreciate that, just such a surprise.

I'm hoping everything's ok, going for a private scan today so fingers crossed all is ok