Hello,
I’m new here, just looking for some advice/ reassurance/ support.
Im a 33 year old, married, professional, I have a fantastic family and a stable married.
Heres the background,
I have suffered for several years with poor mental health. In 2018 I was admitted in to a special care unit due to constant self harming.
in june 2021, I suffered a miscarriage ( I was unaware I was pregnant) but as it seemed “one of those things” I decided to deal with it alone. This resulted in an epic decline, alcohol issues to the point of passing out, more self harm, relationship break down and eventually, in September, I had a stroke, losing the sight in one eye.
Current situation:
After several months of medication and therapy, I’m happy to say my mental health is vastly improved. I have a good support network and my drinking is under control, having days off but usually have a 1 or 2 medium wines a night.
I have just found out that I am 9.5 weeks pregnant and I am TERRIFIED that I might have caused damage to my unborn child, through both my regular drinking and past ill treatment of myself.
Please help me, I would rather die than think think I’ve caused damage to something that means so much.
Xx