Last week my dearest little dog, only 11 months old, was hit by a car. I was completely devastated. He was my everything and helped me through a really bad time. I really loved the little fella. I have been struggling with an addiction for the past two years, drinking everyday. I had got to the point where I was drinking at least a bottle of wine a night and a couple of drinks of spirits. I was struggling to quit. I was starting to get scared I couldn't. I felt my health getting worse and I put on weight. I felt depressed and awful. Stopped caring about anything.
The night he died. I had a beer. Following this, I developed hyper smell and could smell alcohol on me and my partner despite neither of us having much. I felt completely repulsed and disgusted by it.
Ever since that night, I have not had a drop. And I haven't wanted to. I did dry January this year as an attempt and this was extremely difficult. Then fell completely off the wagon...
It is now day 7. I am shocked by this reaction. Relieved and happy about it too. I really had been spiralling.
Has anyone ever heard of this or experienced this bodily and psychological reaction to grief? Currently I feel like I may never drink again. I don't know. I'm just doing it one day at a time..!
Can't believe it.