It's good you've acknowledged that you have an alcohol misuse problem and are feeling the shame, it is too easy to forget this low point as you can't remember your behaviour - so please ask you teenage DD to tell you how you behaved and if you embarrassed her. Make today the day you change.
I doubt your DH enjoyed you making a fool of yourself. My exHs behaviour was not funny nor enjoyable for me, I divorced him in the end. He was a horrible person when drunk and I lost count of the times I was humiliated and wanted to leave him where he was and pretend I didn't know him . It eats away at your love for the person until you have nothing left. It made him a selfish man and terrible dad (young children back then). I don't care how hilarious he thought he could be, or how many times he told me to lighten up it was just a couple drinks (no it wasn't), we never knew which drunk version we would get- fun drunk that often went too far or partied til early hours (staying in bed hungover opting out of life next day), nasty aggressive drunk, humiliating-inappropriately-sharing drunk, crying drunk or falling over pissing himself drunk... i lived on eggshells.
Please Get some help from AA or alcohol service as it'll be difficult to do it alone . As an alcoholic you need to stop drinking entirely - there's no such a thing as an alcoholic having "just one drink" in moderation. It doesn't work out like that
You'll feel so much better if you stop, your skin your head and body will feel more alive without the constant poison of alcohol to excess
Be strong in your commitment to be a better person, a better mum and better wife and friend, because right now you are none of those things as an alcoholic, no matter how 'occasional' it is that you blank out through alcohol- it's one too many times.
They say you have to hit rock bottom sometimes to know when enough is enough and I hope this is that turning point for you.