Accountability

[Spongebobsmartypants]

I am an alcoholic. I have admitted this to myself and my partner. Hes being as supportive as he can be.
i am a mess. I dont drink all week but get hammered at weekend. I am not going to make excuses
this is my first dry day
i will come back here every evening before bed and record my day. I will be holding myself accountable.

Hi Spongebobsmartypants, there are a lot of us in the same boat spread across many threads in this topic. Well done on taking the first step. I found the book Alcohol Explained by William Porter the key I needed to quit. I listened to it on Audible. Prior to that I was a daily drinker. There is a thread based on this book called Day 1 Alcohol Explained started by @OneDayIwillflyaway Good luck with your journey, it definitely helps to write your thoughts and feelings, doubts & fears down & checking in for accountability.

Well done for taking the first step. Loads of support on this board. See you tomorrow 🤞.

Thank you everyone. Day 2 and here we go. Anxiety is through the roof but that's ok. Its just the alcohol leaving my body. I will not drink today

You are so strong @Spongebobsmartypants keep taking one day at a time you got this. Don't forget to congratulate your efforts treat yourself to something new each week you stay dry.

@curlytoday thank you for your support. It means a lot. Today i just walked and walked. I never walked far or fast. I just walked. Exhausted myself physically and mentally, hoping it keeps me going now till bedtime

Hi sponge wait until that lovely.sober sleep comes. I spent lots of time walking in the early days too, I listened to lots of quit lit audiobooks. Here's to another sober day. Well done.

Day 2 is over. Tucked up in bed.

Day 3 ened sober and i am beginnjng to feel human. Heres to day 4

Day 5 is over and my very first sober friday in many many years. I am starting to feel more human but am exhausted and eating too much sweet stuff. My skin is bad too. But i am sober. I can work on the rest later

Well done! 🌺

Hey OP - hope you don't mind me jumping on but I'm in the same boat.

First sober Friday in a longggg time for me last night. Did however make a nice change getting up this morning with the kids and not having nausea.

My last drink was exactly a week ago. Last Saturday I had an event where I started drinking at midday and carried on until midnight and I was so disgusted with myself the next day I couldn't even function. Prior to this I have been having at least a bottle of wine every night solidly for a year.

I'm getting fat, tired, my face looks puffy and my fingers are swollen.

What worries me the most is the week I've been sober I've felt absolutely horrific. A headache that will not go, anxiety through the roof I almost had a panic attack, felt sick, upset stomach. It really hit me that I'm heading towards full physical dependence. My sleep has been shit too. Been so tempted just to go buy a bottle and give in.

Today is the first day I'm actually starting to feel physically better.

How are you managing your triggers? I'm going grocery shopping later and normally stock up on wine. Saturday night without a drink?! Or Sunday making a roast dinner and cracking open a bottle early afternoon.

Although I admit my skin is much better this week. I'm just not enjoying it so far and worry that I'll kid myself I can have just "one night".

Anyway enough about me, hope you're doing ok and here's to sober happy healthy futures.

@NCgoingdry how are you feeling now? I was concerned reading your post that you may have more of a physical addiction than you want to believe and that going cold turkey can be dangerous, please seek the support of a dr if you don't feel any better now.

Hey @surprisedinner yeah I'm actually feeling drastically better. No more headache, no more shivers.

I was worried, like you said I've been in denial.

I'm still thinking about it all the time but I'm trying to find new habits for the evenings to stay away from alcohol. 9 days so far, which is huge for me. Albeit just the start.

How did you get on over the weekend?