I think I drink too much

[CordeliaLOVEScocktails]

I have always liked a drink.

During my unhappy and abusive marriage and the ending, I drank more. Big Gins or wine. When we're locked down and fighting it was especially important.

I can easily drink a bottle of wine in an evening and feel fine the next day.

I can have days off but I'd happily drink every day. However I feel better if I don't drink. I love waking and knowing I dod not drink and don't have a hangover.

But I couldn't imagine not drinking, or going sober. Giving it up which seems to be the trend.

If I go out with others, I can sometimes overdo it. Get people offer to walk me home. So I head home anyway.

I am dependent on alcohol but is that OK? It's a pleasure and a crutch and a need.

Ask if you're getting the results you want for yourself.

If you could choose exactly how much to drink, how much would that be and why?

I highly recommend William Porter's book called Alcohol Explained, I listened to it on Audible, usually in small installments so I could properly digest it & it has changed my life. I'm guessing you are still young, I'm in my late 50s & have been a functioning alcoholic for most of my adult life. It has taken a toll on my health. I've come to the end of my drinking , I wanted release from the endless exhausting cycle of drinking, hangover, anxiety, guilt, self loathing etc. My last drink was 15th February, I don't count days. I was feeling quite unwell & the benefits of being AF just keep on coming. The audio book was my companion & friend. I have surrendered to the fact that I cannot drink responsibly so moderation is out of the question. The book explains the physical & psychological reasons for this in a most compassionate way. There is a thread called Day One, Alcohol Explained started by OnedayIwillflyaway you may find useful. Please know this, you are not alone.