Drinking so much I hurt myself 😳🙁

[PumpkinSpiceGirl]

I’ve woken up in agony after a night out where apparently I fell down some stairs, this isn’t the first time it’s happened - I ended up in A&E earlier in the year.

I’ve never had a great relationship with alcohol but it’s got worse since my divorce, I guess because I don’t have anyone to answer to now.

I’ve had a really difficult few years even without covid and I just feel like I’m spiralling out of control. I miss having someone who cares if I’m ok - the only person who does is my daughter but I’m sick of her seeing me like this.

I’ve worked so hard to try and get myself sorted but booze and food are like my release, it’s all really unhealthy and I don’t know what to do.

Sorry you’re going through this op- I think it’s great you’ve posted here and also that you are seeking change yourself- can you contact AA and Gingerbread? I think both will be a great support xo

If you can't control how much you drink when you start, then you need to never start.

There are some self worth issues that are obvious just from your short post, get yourself a therapist who can help you with them so you can see your value for yourself.

Ah op I've broken my arm before (years ago) whilst pissed and had countless embarrising/mortifying situations caused by alcohol.
I stopped drinking completely 3 years ago and haven't looked back. I won't go on about how much better my life is without it as there are numerous excellent books and threads on mumsnet about it that you can read.
It also sounds like you could benefit from some councilling as, often those that drink heavily, do it to numb something else/give them false confidence. When you choose not to drink you have to confront your demons head on which can be uncomfortable but is very necessary.

Hi OP. I'm sorry you're having a difficult time. When drinking becomes dangerous, like this situation, then it really is time to address it. That's easier said than done I know but if you don't have an off switch and know when to stop or when you've had enough, then abstaining completely is probably the only answer. I read a book about a recovering alcoholic and she said 'it isn't the last drink that gets me drunk, it's the first' which is true as she knew she wouldn't stop once she had her first drink.
There are plenty of books etc to help but I think the first step would be to contact your doctor, get advice and a possible referral to a service like Turning Point or whatever your local community offers. Or contact AA as another poster suggested. You need practical support to stop drinking safely and emotional support too.
You've recognised you have a problem which is a great first step.
Wishing you the very best