I've realised I have a problem with alcohol: I don't drink frequently - less than once a week - but when I do, I just don't know when to stop. I just carry on drinking, fast, and have The Fear the next day trying to remember whether I was an idiot when drunk. My memory of the end of the night is usually pretty hazy, and last time I got drunk I simply don't remember the last couple of hours - just woke up in a massive panic not knowing how I'd got home. This has freaked me out a lot - thankfully I was with DP who made sure I was ok. I haven't put myself in any risky situations, nor said/done anything particularly awful - just being loud and oversharing, and fell over last time, not that I remember - but if I carry on like this surely it's just a matter of time. I think I need to stop drinking completely. I had the best intentions last time, but as soon as I'd had the first drink, I just carried on as usual. I don't know why. I just know I need to change.
Please can anyone recommend any self help books/blogs etc? I've started reading the Thirty Day challenge, and I like it, but I'd have no trouble going thirty days without a drink. Can anyone relate? Thanks :-)