Out of contro

[needjhelp]

Definitely not rock bottom. Holding down professional full time job, have alcohol free days for sure but weekends a nightmare. I feel more and more I am killing myself. I don't want to be like this. I deal with alcoholics who have destroyed their lives, become incapable and die horrendous deaths daily. Why can't I just have a glass of wine and move on.
I feel like my thinking is slow. I have random pains, fitness is worse. I'm vomiting more when I drink. Is this it,can I come back from it?

You can absolutely come back from this and you’ve taken the most important step by admitting it and reaching out.

Someone more knowledgable will be along soon with some real advice, I’m sure, but for now know that you’re not alone and you’ve done something brilliant by writing that first post.