Finally admitting I have a problem...

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So I can’t quite believe I'm posting this and the position I am in. I honestly never expected to have a problem with alcohol, but here I am. Currently drinking a bottle of wine a night. Have been for at least 6 months if not nearer a year with maybe the odd nights off. I hide my drinking. I am appalled with myself that I’m in this situation. I’ve ordered the book - the naked mind and have signed up to the alcohol experiment. I just wanted to see if anyone else was at the very beginning of this journey. I recently needed to see a GP and put it off for ages just incase they needed blood tests and they could tell I drank too much. I’m so ashamed of the position I am, but on the positive I know I need to change. Any tips for someone new to giving up alcohol... I’ve tried a few times but day 3 really gets me. All help is appreciated. I’m determined to do this.

Sending amazing positivity and big hugs. Right down the reasons you want to do this and keep reminding yourself. Do you have any type of support structure in place? Attending any meetings?

@Southwestrunningmum Thanks so much for your reply. I have a list of reasons - there are so many but I will write them down so I have them to look at. I have no support as no one knows what I drink - not even my husband. I want to do this on my own, but I feel like I may need some kind of support. Is there anything online do you know?

I am in the same position as you OP. I am fed up with myself. However, I have decided to have at least 4 dry days a week. Started on Monday. Have done 3 with not too much effort. I am happy to be your sobriety sister. We can do it together.

It’s really tough to do it on your own - most people need support. It’s not a sigh of weakness to need the help of others who really understand.

Please don’t let your shame stop you reaching out. No one at meetings / groups is going to judge you. I can’t tell you how much better you will feel to know that you are not alone on this journey.

Online there us a lot of help AA
You need to discuss this with your husband how does he not know of your drinking? I drank a bottle a night for about 2 yrs and he knew as i was coping with major problems. One night he said to me i think this is excessive. I thought about it and joined AA next day. 12 yrs on i have not had a drink. I used it as a crutch to get over stupid problems it only caused more.

Hi All,
I finally realized that I had a problem after drinking half a bottle of gin a day for 6 months, thought I could only deal with life and bereavement whilst drinking alcohol everyday. It was only when I stopped things got better and I now know gin is not my friend it's my enemy. I'm told I'm a nicer more chilled out person now and most of all it's making my children proud of me. I hope this helps someone else out there making the change.