Hi Mums,
Apologies for the long post.
Just reaching out for support if possible.
It's taken me a while to admit it, I just thought that because I don't drink everyday that I don't have a problem but the truth is sometimes when I drink, I can't stop. I binge drink, make poor decision after, embarrass myself, feel regretful and depressed the next day. Drinking has done nothing to help my anxiety. It's ruined my relationship(partly),I've lost my job because I would sometimes drink and not wake up in time for work,I've wasted soo much money. I feel like I'm doing harm to myself if I continue this way. I have an alcohol support worker who I sometimes speak with and I have a book about quitting alcohol which I'm hoping to read.
I have plans for this year to redo my maths GCSE and eventually do my pgce in teaching, alcohol cannot be combined with this. I'm hanging as I type this, I drank too much yesterday as my daughter was at her dads, I made silly mistakes that I can't even write and just genuinely regret my behaviour. My ex knows I have a problem and was kind enough to not drop my daughter off very early, but he said he'd do dry January with me, which is helpful. I feel sluggish but I'm trying to remain positive today for my daughter.if anyone has any tips on how to be sober please let me know or would like a chat I would really love to hear your stories.
Happy New Year!