I took what felt like for me a huge leap in posting a message on another thread admitting that I am at the moment incapable of stopping my alcohol consumption.
I've been drinking heavily for the last 3 years since my nan and aunt died.
I'm a functioning alcoholic. I work full time. I have 2 young children and a partner.
I'm tired, so tired. I lacked confidence in my earlier years. I looked back at my pictures from my 20's and I was beautiful on the outside even though it didn't feel that way due to childhood sexual abuse and grooming even though I was in my late teens/early 20's and working full time.
I was still young and broken. My ex reported the abuse (rightly) to the police when I told him. I was too scared to give details when they picked me up from work one day. I gave them false information which resulted in me being harassed by said officers for months on end. My Abuser at the time was convicted and deported 2 years later due to another victims allegations.
I'm in my early 30's now and I know I still have time to look as good again, if slightly older!
I'm still lovely on the inside, I know I am. I'm friendly, kind, knowledgeable, giving...all things good, I promise.
I don't have time for AA due to my working hours and having one or the other child home self-isolating for the the past few weeks.
I've cut my drinking down to every other evening. A huge step for me. It's not enough though. I have no friends or family to support me.
I've joined the gym, I cycle daily but I still have so far to go.
I was wondering if somebody that has or is recovering from alcohol/drug abuse would like a buddy?
I could really do with a friend.