Want to quit - ashamed to say I need help

[jammyredroo]

I've NC for this as I am really embarrassed that I have allowed myself to become dependent on alcohol.

I enjoy a drink and in the last few years I've began to drink more and more. Since lockdown I'm a daily drinker - most evenings I can finish a bottle of wine. I used to be the type that could have two glasses and be very tipsy. I can go nights where I don't drink but all the time I'm not having a drink I wish I was and spend all my time thinking I'll have a night off tonight then I can drink tomorrow.

I'm more than a stone overweight, I have stomach issues going on at the moment and I know I need to quit it. Having a drink helps me go to sleep easier otherwise I can lay awake for hours before I drop off.

Anyway, I have almost a full bottle of wine staring at me in the kitchen. Do I finish it this evening and quit tomorrow or pour it away and crack on with it?

It creeps up on you. I was a problem drinker before lockdown but got a lot worse during lockdown. I'm just over 100 days sober now, sometimes miss it but I don't miss obsessing over whether I would drink, how much, awful hangovers and anxiety.
I would put the wine down the sink, did that with the last of mine and felt symbolic.
Good luck!

So.. did you pour it away? How you doing now x