Can anyone advise me?

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I drink too much. Last night after a break of 15 days, a special occasion led to me drinking again. I make no excuses for it, and actually I don’t think I’ve done anything ‘wrong’ as such. I just got bored, and sank into the familiar embrace of (more than a bottle of) white wine. How did people sustain sobriety? I find it pleasant but extremely boring.

If you’re to view your relapse as a sign of hopelessness and what’s the point, I’m beyond help etc etc then you cannot pick up the pieces and fix this OP. BUT, you do have a choice. If on the other hand you forgive your relapse, think long and hard about the series of events that lead to it and think about how to avoid next time...then you can move forward in a more positive way. Believing that social drinking is ok but lone drinking is not is a classic mistake to fall into. For most recovering alcoholics sober means sober....never drinking again no matter what presents itself as tempting exception. Was is worth it for you OP? Sounds like the regret has outweighed the fun of the night tbh.

Did that bottle of wine really make your evening less "boring"? What entertainment did it provide?

Join AA.

Do you want to stop drinking fully? Do you believe you have a problem which affects your life in a negative way? If not.. why don't you set yourself 2 days a week where you have say 2 glasses of wine? .. When you say over 1 bottle, how much over.. did it lead you to being ill or doing anything bad/embarrassing or feeling down? There's not a massive issue with having the odd bottle of wine.. if that's what you enjoy, do it.. unless this is something you do quite often for reasons such as surpressing bad feelings then obviously it's not good for your health as you obviously know..

Im pregnant and haven't had a drink for 5 months and I'm genuinely looking forward to being able to drink again 😣 it makes me feel that maybe i have some sort of problem but i think alot of people enjoy a drink xx