I have been here before, deciding that I’m drinking too much and deciding to do something about it.
Before meeting my husband, i had been teetotal for 3 years. One day i just decided not to drink..after months of trying and failing to quit alcohol.
When i first met my DH, he didn’t think i had a problem with alcohol and told me that he was sure i could drink in moderation.
It’s not his fault, i still made the choice to start drinking again, promising myself that I’d only have the odd glass now and again.
Now here we are 3 years down the line and I’m back to 3 bottles a week, and that’s me being ‘good’ and not drinking as much as I’d like.
i work full time, i dont always finish a whole bottle in 1 evening, I NEVER drink during the day, it doesn’t impact my parenting or job.....yet I know that i have an issue with alcohol. Not an alcoholic, but definitely ’an issue with’ alcohol.
My dad is/was an alcoholic (never admitted it) and is actually in the end stages of liver cancer. My mum had her own issues with alcohol too.
I just need someone to hold my hand, i know that sounds silly. Is anyone else in the same position, or has been in this position that could just give me some advice?
I now know that i can never delude myself into thinking that i can have just 1 or 2.