So Iv always been quite a big drinker, usually wine and just on weekends, fast forward to when I had my DD 2 years ago - I was on mat leave and started upping the drink, then went back to work 3 days a week, I thought I'd go back to just the weekend wine but I didn't I still drank on days I knew I wasn't at work the next day so about 4 days a week, by now I have a high tolerance for wine so can easily do 2 bottles in one evening. Fast forward to Xmas- I had a traumatic time with something that happened and have been struggling ever since and using alcohol as a crutch- so for 5 months been drinking even heavier with the rare day or two off, not only that I introduced spirits aswell as having the wine as the wine wasn't cutting it, I can still function which is scary but once it wears off the next day my anxiety is terrible to the point a have hand tremors and feel so restless. I'm so ashamed of myself Iv let myself get to this, is anyone else in the same boat? Or drinking similar amounts that can be a buddy for cutting it right back? I'd live to get back to just having a few on a weekend and enjoying it and not feeling the awfulness after, I know I only started drinking this bad because of stress and then the upset, I am getting help and on medication so hoping if I can cut back I could get back to my old self again 