Dreams

[Lotty32]

I am sober for 29 days but still dream of alcohol most nights - normally secretive drinking or trying to. Is this normal? Thx

Hang in there . I am not in recovery but have been around enough to know some of what you are facing . Get your support lined up , it’s difficult to go so without it .alcohol is a drug , it keeps calling you . Stay away from it and replace your thoughts with other stuff.
You can do this , good thoughts for your future x

Thx I'm finding being AF fine (though don't want to turn into a dry drunk!) just the dreams which are a bore!!

14 months sober here.

What you are experiencing are what some in recovery call "using dreams". Please persevere: the first month was hard as fuck for me, but it does get easier to manage.

Many thx Jar - I have never heard that phrase before but just looked it up and it all makes sense

No worries. Mine were so vivid I used to check my phone when I woke to check what I'd done the night before while "drunk"! 🙈

Are you getting support?

29 days is FAB! You'll have done a month soon!

Feel free to PM if you need a chat.

Thx so much yup new A.A. friends who are being great

Guess what?...

You just kicked the living blue shite out of your first 30 days!

Way to fucking GO girl! 😍

Thx so much made me smile! My family don't totally understand the disease so lovely to get some support

I get that totally. I've experienced this with my anorexia- people who can eat without issue ask me why I can't just eat a normal meal etc? People who drink without issue sometimes have the same attitude. I know it's hard- but try not to hold it against them: it's hard to understand unless you've personally experienced it- either yourself, or, as a PP said, by watching someone else go through it.

Did you dream last night?

Not about alcohol that I can remember! I am a huge dreamer Nd have always have recurring dreams. Big believer in dreams esp recurring ones!

Progress! 😍

I still remember the first month. I used Addaction. I exited the initial assessment...and went straight to the pub. You know- the one ACROSS THE ROAD FROM THE SERVICE? Like I wasn't going to get caught! 🙈

My keyworker schooled me about it the next time we met. I took it seriously from then on in.

Have you discovered any strange triggers yet? Cooking dinner was when I missed it most at first. I love cooking, and thought I'd have to give it up, as cooking and a glass of wine went hand in hand. So I bought some apple tango, and had a glass every time I cooked: it seemed more like a treat then.

Diet coke also. I couldn't face the stuff for ages because I could legit "taste" the alcohol in it (vodka and diet coke was my thing).

(Who the fuck am I kidding? Paint stripper would have been my thing if that was all I had!)

I loved cooking and wine! So don't cook elaborate meals any more!! I was going to A.A. and still drinking that was in the past though! Very nearly lost everything

Me too. Getting sober literally saved my life- I fled a DV relationship back in July, and I'd been sober for 4 months by then. If I'd still been drinking I wouldn't have had the strength to flee in the first place, and I wouldn't have had the strength to parent my two DS on my own.

Well done you

I've had the drinking dreams.
I am sober 5 years now, I didn't hit rock bottom, but I was in a dangerous relationship and I needed my wits about me to leave, the booze kept me weak, so I had to stop to get hold of my life.
But yes, I still wake up shitting myself that I've dreamt that I've had a bender.....I am a single mother now and it's terrifying!
Luckily just a dream, and my terror keeps me on the straight and narrow.
Congrats on your 30 days, it gets easier, the temptation is always there, but your resolve gets stronger and instinctive.

How are you doing now?

Good thx this lockdown is great for us alcoholics!

Brilliant news!

You’re doing great! I still get odd dreams like this and I stopped drinking nearly 2 years ago. Weirdly enough the dreams are more frequent just now so I’m wondering if they are connected with all the background anxiety of the present times?

Apparently we are all dreaming more as we are sleeping more so more time in the REM phase of sleep. Thx for your kind words early days and baby steps!

i was 6 years sober yesterday and i still get drinking dreams. they’re very frustrating as i dream i’m necking booze and then get annoyed as i’m not drunk.

it’s part of recovery. last night i dreamed i was drinking scotch from a pint mug with my first husband. very odd.

and yes, i too am always relieved to wake up and discover it was just a dream!

@Craftycorvid mine have increased but i was putting it down to being my sober anniversary.

but my other dreams are very vivid and very weird so you may have a point. our unconscious minds trying to file away all the ways everything has changed.