I can't even do a day one

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I'm reading a book about getting alcohol free. It's a great book. I read half of it yesterday and whereas normally I'd start drinking at 11:30am whilst cooking lunch, I didn't. I abstained until 8:30pm, and then I drank my usual two bottles
Of wine. I can drink a large glass of white wine in 15 minutes.

I started drinking wine at 11:15am today, I've had a bottle and three quarters of wine, and I've just poured a gin and orange juice. It won't be my last today.

Please help me.

I think the main thing is that you've done amazing to realise that your drinking is a problem and are taking steps to limit/cut down on it.
Yesterday you went all day without drinking when you usually would - that's brilliant. Today you didnt but tomorrow is a new day.
I don't have any experience of this personally so can't offer any practical advice how to stop drinking unfortunately but you are taking the 1st steps towards dealing with this and you need to try and remain positive and keep going.
If you do have a blip it doesn't have to be the end of you stopping. Take each day at a time. Best wishes

Please seek help. Alcoholism is a killer and is very difficult to beat alone.
You are an ill person, not a bad person.
Take action today for your illness.

Hi there, so brave of you to reach out with such honesty. It is definitely the first step out of the madness. I am an addict and alcoholic in recovery with three years sobriety. I recovered through Alcoholics Anonymous. These meetings are still running on zoom. So listen in even if you aren't confident enough to appear on camera just yet.

alcoholicsanonymouslondon.com this should take you to the list of online meetings

Good luck...remember you are unwell, you need help. You are NOT a bad person

Big Hug x

I’m impressed that you’re trying right now 🌷

Would it help to read the book in the morning? Just to remind you why you’re doing this/how you need to approach it?

There used to be a great series of threads (boozy babes?) supporting each other to give up maybe try to find them.

You CAN do this 🌷

You can do this, break the day into hours at the moment this will be easier for you, to manage, if need be 15 minutes good luck, I’m six years sober but always remember there are people who can help hugs,

I'm in A.A. and the zoom meetings are great. There are some designed for newbies and they offer great support. Good luck x

Oh my god thank you! I can't believe you've all been so lovely.
So, when I wrote my post I recognised I was at rock bottom, told my husband and went to bed at 5. I think he was relieved i told him.

Through his work health insurance I can get counselling, so I've got the number and just need to call it.

I haven't had a drink since that moment. However, I also woke up with an awful fever and sore throat so it's been a bit easier not to as just want sleep.

Again, thank you.

Don’t just stop drinking though- it’s not safe to do that and especially just now... maybe plan to cut down very gradually and be proud of each reduction. Some people find cutting down the amount of alcohol rather than dropping the drink easier- so you have a wine spritzer gradually reducing the amount of wine rather than stopping the drink at that time? Hope that makes sense. And that the online support you find will be helpful too- see it as the long game and not an immediate thing. You CAN do this.

Hi OP wishing you all the best. Hopefully the counseling is running over the phone at the mo and you can access quickly. Sounds like you have some Corona symptoms though so first concentrate on getting yourself rested. Take care

As pp says do not stop drinking completely, it must be gradual or it will be dangerous. You should be very proud of yourself for admitting you are an alcoholic and seeking help.

Well done, you have made the most important step which is to recognise you need to make a change. You will need to talk to your doctor as if you are at this level it could be harmful to your health to suddenly stop. Try to get an e-consult - it may be you can speak to your doctor over the phone and get some advice. Take care there is lots of support here for people making this great step.

I was drinking a similar amount and told strongly by specialist doctor that I couldn't just stop drinking totally as could get fits - super super dangerous so you will need to gradually drink less and less each day. Know it seems counter intuitive - perhaps your husband can help you "administer" the wine. Good luck x