Anyone long term sober?

[Holdingtherope]

Just that really, feel in a massive rut. 10 years sober, my whole recovery has been doing AA but last 2 years I have really struggled with staying motivated and stopped going. Just panicking that I will relapse. Feel really lost after loving recovery for so long? Anyone else?

I last had a drink about the same time as you. I'm not in recovery per say as I'm on a script but I understand about the rut feeling. Have you tried NA? A lot of people I met there say they find it more laid back than AA?

I'm the same amount of time clean/sober too OP

Can you think of a hobby that might give you a buzz? It could be anything - gardening, volunteering or kayaking, perhaps something you've always been curious about but slightly out of your comfort zone. I rescued a dog last year and he's completely changed my life. I plan on buying a 2 berth camper van so we can do a tour of britain together

Everybody needs fun in their lives I think, and sobriety doesn't have to be a long hard slog all the time.

Do you guys do
Support?

Has your message come out wrong? It seems like there's something missing- or am I being dense?

Have you tried doing some 'service' in AA?
I'm a similar time sober and I do Public Information work. It really helps motivate me and keeps me in touch with members.

coming up on 6 years here. it still surprises me that i don’t drink any more. i go to meetings when i can for the friendships i have there, and as a reminder that it’s one day at a time. i was in a bad relationship that i got into in early sobriety and didn’t go to meetings for a couple of years, so being back feels fresh and i’m lucky i didn’t pick up a drink in those wilderness years living with an active alcoholic.

i need to get my arse in gear, get a new sponsor and work the steps again - a LOT has happened since i first went through them.

don’t let boredom persuade you that you don’t need recovery. that would be a terrible thing.

i came onto this forum 4.5 years ago talking about my sobriety in a similar way. I did relapse. Luckily i’m now 4 years sober again. all i can say is alcoholism is cunning, baffling and powerful. please consider a new way of approaching AA /sobriety to ensure you don’t relapse, it’s hell and it is also dangerous/life threatening. i’m not an AA fanatic- i go 2-3 times a week, do service and surround myself with healthy, sober people. But I know that addiction can play tricks on our mind, and convince us we don’t need recovery. someone gave me a talking to on here and i’m grateful for that.
Happy to chat, good luck x