Drinking wine every night is destroying me

[HedgeHogFoxBadger]

For the past year I have been drinking a bottle of wine a night. I am a single parent to 3 girls aged 17, 13 and 5 and life has been pretty tough dealing with DD self harm and eating disorder which are still on going.
I took to drinking wine every night. I hate doing it. I go to the gym 4/ 5 times a week and love going and I work everyday and love my job and the routine.
I want to stop, I dont want to feel like this anymore, tonight feeling very tearful but have had a good day. Im exhausted though.
Ive not spoken to anyone about this apart from my step mum at the weekend. I was very close to my manager at work (who I am still close with but shes stepped down) and we have a new manager and I cant imagine talking to her about home life

Hi, I’m sorry you’re down. Come and join us on the wankerbastards thread if you like, we’re friendly and non judgmental and we’re all trying to cut down. Lots of us also have teens, we get it! Or there are other threads for people who are complaining abstaining I’m sure. Good luck whatever you decide.

We are here www.mumsnet.com/Talk/alcohol_support/3766773-Wankerbastards-move-to-2020-With-moderatin-a-plenty-We-rage-against-flouncers-strops-and-teens-and-of-dryness-we-have-big-dreams-We-want-teacups-not-fuckups

*completely abstaining, not complaining!

Ive joined you on there before. Never keep up with it, just quietly read along as you all post but you are a lovely bunch! I just never stick with my decision come 6pm!

This time last year I was doing what you're doing. A bottle of wine a night. It started with a glass or two then before I knew it I was polishing off a bottle, sometimes followed by a gin, every single night. I still got up everyday and went to work, gym, did school runs and so on but it made me very fat, very tired and very depressed.

It sounds like you've been using alcohol as a crutch during a tough time whereas I just got into bad habits because I enjoyed it. Maybe you could use some support?

You can cut back. Its possible and you will feel so much better for it that you simply won't want to go back to your old ways.

I'm sure you already know this but a bottle and a half of wine is your recommended weekly intake and you're going well over that. You won't be doing your liver and general health any favours. Mentally you must be exhausted.

You can do this and life will get a lot better when you do. It's hard to function when you're always running on half empty / half hungover. Good luck x

Hi badger, no worries, if you need a different approach fair enough 💐

I drink every night more or less too with the odd night off.
I don't a whole bottle maybe 2 glasses and a cider but it's still too much have you looked at apps that can help ? Remember this isn't your fault it's the alcohol addiction trap x