Hello, I decided to stop drinking two and a half weeks ago as I realised I wasn't enjoying it anymore and it was making me feel completely rubbish. I was drinking around 5 out of 7 days a week usually a bottle of wine each time which had steadily increased as a way of managing stress (that actually made me feel worse)
Anyway, since stopping my skin and hair feel amazing, my mind feels clear. I feel, calm, I think is the best way to describe it. Balanced; my emotions aren't all over the place.
So why then am I debating whether to drink on an upcoming family holiday? I have been looking forward to it for so long and feel that I won't enjoy it as much as I would do if I drank alcohol. I know this isn't true, but I can't shake the feeling of missing out.
Do I drink for the holiday (and on other special occasions) or am I kidding myself about moderating and should just stick to water?
I'm a single parent and have worried about my levels of drinking and where it could lead to the future and I don't want my son growing up with alcohol being normalised as an answer to problems.
Does the fact that I am considering drinking and craving it despite feeling so much better indicate a problem ?