Charged with Drink Driving

[PurpleDaisy2114]

Hi all- I should have joined this thread much sooner. I have been charged. With drink driving and have a pending court date. I can't believe it has taken this to make me wake up to my behaviour. The alcohol consumption has been increasing last few months and whenever I'm out I'm always the most drunk, I don't know when to stop.
I like how alcohol makes me feel, the way it turns off all the voices and thoughts and stops me being so awkward and self conscious. I definitely self- medicate but after spending a night in a police cell the stark reality has really hit me. I could have killed somebody. What was I thinking.
I'm not sure how to start to piece things back together. I have a family- dh and 2 children.

[PurpleDaisy2114]

Just wanted to add that I have been sober now for almost 2 months.

[Longlockdown]

Well done. I hope it goes well.

[Teetotallyimperfect]

That is great news, @PurpleDaisy2114. How have you found it? Are you doing it on your own or with a support group?

[PurpleDaisy2114]

Thank you. Have been seeing local addiction support monthly and joined some social media groups, got an app which have all helped.

[PurpleDaisy2114]

I find it hard. The first two weeks I felt a sense of relief but then my anxiety massively increased and I guess I started to feel all the emotions I had used alcohol to numb. Also wasn't expecting the sweet cravings.
I've read the joy of being sober and am reading the naked mind too and those books have really helped me less alone with it.

[StillGardening]

You should be really proud because I think lockdown must be a particularly hard time to go sober. Congratulations - keep going !

[Blackdog19]

Well done @PurpleDaisy2114. You’ve done brilliantly especially during lockdown

[bettybluebees]

Well done

[Brenna24]

Well done.

[ModConnie]

That’s excellent - well done you.

[PeartreeProductions]

Wel done OP