I've been lurking & now feel compelled to post.
My mother is an alcoholic. Has been for at least 5 years but probably longer, as looking back now some incidents make sense when seen from that viewpoint iyswim.
My sister (& dniece 5 & dnephew 10) found her last night puking up gin & multiple empty bottles there. She was supposed to be there to babysit DC. It's not the first time. There have been other incidents too, all while at somebody's house. She works in an office with my dad & hates it but doesn't seem to drink then. Only when looking after DC or alone. She keeps offering to look after my DC but I've said no. It's meant I have no career & no money but I can't risk it.
My dad keeps saying she's not an alcoholic & will offer her wine etc when other people have one!
I feel awful about it all. I feel angry with her for doing it. I feel ashamed of her. I feel desperately sad for her.
We live round the corner & usually pop round at weekends but I can't face them right now. I dread bumping into them. I feel guilty that I feel like this.
I need to tell DH but I don't want to because he is already depressed because his lovely mum has dementia & he's been unemployed since before Christmas.
I'm sorry for going on, if you've read this far. It's just all such a mess 