Admitted it this morning.

[nonomore]

Last night I drank 2 bottles of red wine on my own. I don't drink every day but at least once a week I'll secretly drink too much and hide the evidence. DP will see maybe 3 empty cans in the recycling, but I'll have hidden the other 8 or so.

This morning I got up for work and just couldn't stand up in the shower. I lied on the floor in there and cried. Then I went through to DP and told him. He was lovely.

I'm not buying in alcohol anymore. I do this too much and then hate myself for it. No more buying 2 bottles of wine, hiding them and drinking them, and saying I've just had 2 glasses.

NC for this. Just wanted to write it down.

[Thiswayorthatway]

That's very brave of you OP. So pleased to hear DH is supportive. I have heard a lot of good things about AA, maybe you should give them a try as being with others also struggling might help.

[nonomore]

Thank you.

I've called in sick to work, I felt so rough I could hardly stand up. No way I could have driven. I usually tell myself that if my drinking doesn't interfere with work and general functioning then I can't be that bad, but this can't go on.

Are AA good? I'm sure we must have one local

[Lamentations]

Hi OP,

There are a couple of threads with a lot more traffic where it would be worth reposting this - the dry thread at the top of this board and the brave babes one on the relationship board. There are a LOT of other people who know what you are talking about on MN but some of these threads don't get the traffic.

I can recommend a few great podcasts to you that I've found really helpful. Love Sober is a couple of British women in conversation and from there I've found The Edit and Home Podcast, which are American women. Listening to them has helped me understand a lot.

[buddhasbelly]

Hi OP you can check out the AA website. They have an online chat service if you don't feel like speaking to anyone in RL just yet. Also a phone service and list of meetings online. PM me if you want. Take care.