Can't stop

[Usagii]

This is the first time I've ever reached out for any advice or support about this. I realise I have a problem.

I'm a single mum to 13 month old DS. His father is abroad and we don't keep contact. The only way I can wind down after every intense day is a bottle of wine. I look forward to it. It's my time to chill and kick back. It's my only friend. And DS is so much more demanding lately and I feel like I need the wine more than ever lately.

It's making my face look older and haggard. It's piled on the pounds. I notice it more and more. And I'm knackered. And I know I'll probably be met with some awful news in the future with regards to my health if I don't stop. And I need to be there for DS.

I literally don't know how to start to stop

Hi usagii I am sorry you are having such a tough time. I have been where you are - two years ago I was drinking a bottle of wine a day at least and feeling awful. I stopped in March 2016. I found the support on the Dry board really helpful and also referred myself to my local alcohol service. Are you able to speak to your GP or is there anyone else who can support you ? You have done a really brave thing in reaching out here. Where abouts are you based ? PM me and I can try and suggest some ideas for support. Have a look at the Dry board too. Take care

How are you getting on? X