Looking for some guidance as to whether I'm being unreasonable or not. My DH and I are on a temporary separation. Part of the reason behind this is the emotional impact on me of living with his alcoholism for 5 years and him not being there for me emotionally during this time (which covered the birth of our DC and 2 miscarriages) and generally being a grumpy and unpleasant person to be around. He went through a detox programme 15 months ago and had not drunk since, but then became depressed, so the last year has been struggling on meds. End result is the same, another year of living with someone who could only focus on their own problems, leaving me unsupported.
Trying to talk about our marriage now he won't acknowledge the impact the last 6 years have had on me, only how hard it's been on him. Other than stoping the drinking, he's not been on any kind of AA programme, so no acknowledging and working through the impact of his behaviour on others. It's all very self-centred and 'poor little me'. Someone I know described him as a dry drunk - the drinking is gone, but the self-centred addict behaviour hasn't been challenged. Is that fair? Am I being fair? He tells me that by talking about the last 5 years I'm making him go back to a period in his life that he doesn't want to visit. My behaviour in the marriage hasn't been perfect (and I admit that) but it's like he thinks any impact of his behaviour on me can be excused because he was an addict, it was a tough time for him and he didn't choose to be that way. Any insights are very welcome as I'm just getting angrier and angrier at his attitude.