AO hearing is a few short days away and I feel sick, what if it all goes wrong.
Lawyers said it wouldn't happen for months as BD is awol and the courts would have to track him via his benefits or determine if he was back in prison as although he knew DS would be adopted doesn't know that he is now with his forever family so therefore no input on the adoption. Judge read the SS report recently and said no to further delays and to get the final hearing booked in. Won't be doing any more to trace BD. Hoping this doesn't come back to bite 
BM's behaviour and previous actions (refusing to engage for weeks with SW then being all over it/them) is making me so bloody nervous right now. Sometimes she went to court, other times she didn't. She could have attended the session where the details were presented a few weeks ago but didn't, but then suddenly wanted to meet me then failed to turn up. I fully believe she doesn't want him back, not only that but was in fact relieved when he was removed as he was 'stolen' (her words) rather than her 'giving him up' it's also pretty clear that there is a LOT of pressure downright bullying on her from her own family to get him back or have him placed with his BGP's (never going to happen, so unsuitable didn't even make it to a full assessment by SS).
My head knows that the AO will be granted at some point, I just have this irrational fear that they will all arrive in court for this last chance and it will delay everything by months and months and I'm not sure my mental health can cope with that, the thought of losing him no matter how small is horrendous.
So if anyone has a crystal ball I can borrow.....