I am very split about the next few days. On one level it kills me that my gorgeous little boy isn't going to be with me on his birthday. (2nd one without him) on the other I know they will celebrate and spoil him and I want him to have the best birthday possible. It's just hard. It feels like a massive part of me is missing.
It's his birthday tomorrow. And the adoption order anniversary in 6 days. He will have been legally their child a year when that comes round although he has Been theirs since he was placed with them as far as I am concerned.
Its just really hard. I am so glad he has parents that love him and can and will provide everything he needs,but that doesn't mean that I don't hurt.
I think it's just going to be a hard week. I cremated my mum two years ago today. And I am missing her too.
Mummys little miracle, both your mummys love you xx