Adoption secret

[Slippersmum]

I know generally this thread is for people who are thinking of or adopting but I know there are some people on here who were adopted themselves, such as myself. I was raised to keep my adoption a secret and was not allowed to tell anyone. As a child I once told my best friend and when my Dad found out he made me go back and tell her I had lied. This has resulted in me not really being able to share the fact that I am adopted, even my very closest friends do not know. As I have got older I have felt the resentment towards my parents grow (my Dad is now dead). And I really don't know how to get passed this. I am not going to speak to my Mum about it as she is nearly 90 now and its just too late for that but I would like to find some kind of peace. I have been diagnosed with a very serious illness, which although currently under control will probably eventually kill me. I recently had lunch with my best friend and we were talking about my funeral and I mentioned how easy it is not to share things with people as most people just don't ask. She joked that when I die she will sit there thinking am I at the right funeral, is this even her? And we both laughed but I guess it really isn't funny. Does anyone have any advice or suggestions.

[Slippersmum]

Oh mop sorry to hear that. Was it about adoption or something else x