tears tonight

[OurMiracle1106]

Letting go of my birth son was the hardest thing I ever had to do. Saying goodbye crushed me. I fought the placement order but not the adoption. I believed that the court would make the right decision for him. And it was. I see that now. This doesnt make it any easier though or less painful. Dreams of him still come. I still wake in tears.

I know they love him and are truly amazing people as well as parents.

I'm just struggling a bit and needed to write it down :'(

I'm so sorry Miracle it must be incredibly hard. There is not really anything I can except he will always be your son as well as their's.

I am thinking of you tonight.

May the future hold many good new things and may one day you meet again, in a brighter future.

oh Miracle, my words all sound very pathetic really. I am thinking of you and care about you xx

((HUGS))

Extra hugs Miracle

I often think of you miracle, and I admire your bravery and dignity! Offering you a hand hold too

Thank you for your support. Last night I turned to the meds my doctor prescribed and actually took one to help me sleep. I went therapy today and talked a few things through

Miracle. Thinking of you

I really hope the meds and therapy are helpful for you. Still thinking of you

I remember you, Miracle. I'm the adoptee who posted to one of your other threads. I'm so sorry you are hurting. I don't really have any words to help you, but I hope you will soon be able to remember your son without such terrible pain. You've enabled him to have a better life, as my mother did for me. I know he would want you to be happy, just as I always hoped that my birth mother had a happy life.

Oh I hope you are feeling better

And hugs