tomorrow our son turns 4!

[OurMiracle1106]

I miss him. It's the first birthday I won't be spending with him. I know I have to get used to this but it doesn't make it any easier.

My lovely amazing niece (whose 4 and a half) randomly asked this morning "do you miss miracle?" (obviously miracle is not my sons name) I replied with every single day. (not a lie) I wanted to say with every beat of my heart and every pulse of my veins I miss him. And will always miss him. But she's only 4. She then asked are you missing me? I said no I'm with you but when I go home I miss you.

This time 4years ago I was in labour and had been for 37 hours and 55 minutes and had another 9 hours and 36minutes remaining before I met my gorgeous little boy.

It has been 341 days since I said my final goodbye.
I miss him.

Just wanted to write it somewhere

Nothing I can say, but I'll just be here to light a birthday candle with you and wish your precious son a wonderful 4th birthday.

Miracle you are in my heart, I am so sorry for you. I hope that this birthday will bring you some peace. You are in the world and he is in the world, I am very hopeful one day you will meet up. Thinking of you.

Bless you....

Hoping you find some enjoyment in your day tomorrow. You are so brave and your pain is so obvious and a real reminder about the flip side of adoption.

Happy 4th Birthday Little Miracle

Oh Miracle I am thinking of you xx

I hope your precious boy has a wonderful birthday

Thinking about you Miracle

Thinking of you today Miracle, happy birthday little one xxxx

Happy birthday to your darling boy. Thinking of you today xx

Thinking of you today, ourmiracle.

Happy Birthday to little miracle and I am also thinking of you with your pain and sadness.As excitedmamma said it is a reminder of the flip side of adoption

Hope it's all going well, Miracle, with your friend's little girl and you aren't too overwhelmed. I think you are very brave and as others have said, thank you for providing us with an insight into the flip side of adoption.

When DS celebrated his birthday, I thought a lot about his BM. I am sure you are in the thoughts of your son's adoptive parents, too.

Miracle you are amazing. You're in my thoughts too x

Thank you for everyones support.

I had a lovely day today and having lovely little niece has taken my mind off things having her to look after and keep me busy.

I had a few tears at 7.30 this morning. But I've been okay since

I'm glad the day has gone as well as it possibly could for you. I spend a lot of time thinking about BM on DS's birthday.