Thanks, I really like the feedback, even if it's negative, I just wonder what people think now I've been able to put together what happened.
My soliciter fought for me to keep him, but I don't recall my solicitor or barrister (funded by LA) even speaking up in court.
I recently got told I should have made a statement of my own to the judge, but don't recall anyone advising me of this. If I'd known I think I would have spent weeks or months on that. The judge never got to hear me out at all.
The court appointed child gaurdian was the only one who stood up in court and said there's no reason why I shouldn't be given a chance in a mother and baby unit.
The judge seemed to say there was no point, in case I find myself not coping again, it would be worth for my son to be adopted at a later date.
He said I could possibly hurt him emotionally in future, because I began self harming after I was told they were forcing through an adoption.
The social services have erased the records of why he was forcibly adopted, and written that I actually agreed to it.
They also have on record that I was a vulnerable under 18 (should have had own social worker for advise and support), then they bafflingly fail to explain why I was never given one or told I should have had one.
I wasn't able to add in the magazine story all of the lying and scheming it turns out that social services did.