I don’t know quite why I am posting. I am a senior lecturer and have been employed for the last 25 years. I am unlikely to ever make Professor despite the fact that many of my students have… whatever I do now I don’t have the track record. I have 3 children and battled for many years against older male professors telling me to give up and stay at home with the kids. . Attitudes have now changed but the consequences are still with me. I just feel so rubbish and am not sure how to get away from this feeling.
I know I’m very lucky - I am not in danger of being made redundant at the moment but I have another 10 years or so before I can retire.