I will start this by saying I completely acknowledge my dissertation wasn’t my best work and I expected to fail due to issues with my supervisor and having to just work by myself which led to issues with my own time management. (When someone is constantly negative, doesn’t answer your questions and is frequently unavailable it is not motivating. I have posted before about my proposal which in the end I had to get approved by another tutor because my supervisor was delaying everything.) But I have unbelievably failed by a long way, which I think is quite undeserved.
All the way through my masters course I have received merits and distinctions. I am clearly capable of working at this level. My final dissertation was based on a previous project for which I received a distinction. I added and discussed even more literature and yet the marking grid has things like ‘doesn’t engage with enough literature’ highlighted. I was praised in the previous project for critical reflection on literature - I’ve done the same in the dissertation and been told I am too reflective. Suddenly out of nowhere, the literature I have used is too old (the main theory is over 15 years old; I can’t help that) when this was never brought up before and age of the research is nowhere in the marking criteria. My supervisor kept telling me to make reference to literature in the write up of the findings and yet in the feedback said there was too much literature.
I have an online meeting with the course leader next week but honestly reading the small amount of feedback I have been given (no specifics, nothing identified as being worth keeping and a highlighted grid, plus one line from the second marker which makes me wonder if they actually read it) it sounds like I need to redo the whole thing, which I don’t think I can do in a matter of weeks there are to the deadline I have been given. I work long hours full time and have other projects lined up now as well as personal issues I have made the course leader aware of. I have also raised the issue of my supervisor but don’t expect anything to come of that because they are close colleagues.
I’ve been told I can’t have any form of extension/extenuating circumstances because I took an interruption of studies previously when a parent died, and my registration is running out. I have checked the regulations and I actually have another year so this is incorrect, which I will bring up.
How do I approach this meeting?
I have asked for a different supervisor. I really can’t engage with the one I had. At the moment I just cry whenever I think of having to work with them again, which is not ideal!
Would it be more sensible to just exit the course? I would have a really high mark diploma if it was a possibility to do this… but my employer paid for me to do a masters, which would probably mean I have to pay everything back and admit I am a failure. Plus I already have a diploma and feel I would spend the rest of my life explaining why I have this other weird qualification - because I failed.
I have lost all enthusiasm and interest in the topic due to this process. I am not sure if I actually can open up the document and be interested in it again. Should I push to repeat the whole year and do something different? Take the credits I have to another university some time in the future?
How many people do actually pass second time from being absolutely roasted on first submission? It just seems like there is so much to do.
Is it worth me trying to contact my original tutor, who was amazing but has since gone to a different university. At this stage I would happily pay for their help, but it’s probably not the done thing!
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