There are lots of reasons, everything from the fact I'm still picking up the fall out of work from the last strike, to just not having the physical and mental the energy to strike this time around. My institution are striking on the inequalities issue, an issue I highly support, but do not feel striking is the way to solve it. My students are tired and struggling, and the only people we seem to punish are ourselves and them. The political discussion in my department is just toxic on this, agressively turning on those who don't/won't strike whilst chanting a narrative about all coming together. I've witnessed the worst bullying I have ever seen all in light of this action which is supposed to promote inclusion and equality! Whilst I agree with the cause I don't want to align myself with the hardliner narrative of 'you're either with us or against us.' I love my job, I love my students, I support the ideals of the action, but the way it is playing out.... well as the title says, my heart just isn't in it.