please can someone help me. i'm in shock. i have just joined mumsnet. ok: i am a recovering alcoholic. i have been attending AA since 2005, and spent nearly 3 years sober before deciding that i probably didn't ned to keep goingt to AA anymore (very silly). At xmas just gone, i foolishly started drinking again. by March this year it was uncontrollable and i had to ask my mother for some assistance with my 3 year old to ensure she was safe and happy while i worked on stopping drinking again. My 3 year old sees her father every weekend and we have set this up with out court involvement. we both have parental responsibility. my daughters dad is in AA like myself. he is 3 years sober. at the end of April this year i drank heavily and phoned my ex partner to come and collect my daughter at 10pm because i wanted her to be safe. i handed her over to him that night so that i could spend the following few days attending as many AA meetings as possible. I stopped drinking (through the towel in), and got straight back to AA. My daughter was still with her father, and he took her down to the seaside for a holiday to his parents which had been long planned. My daughter remained with her grand parents while my ex partner return in order to attend his AA meetings. Last tuesday he attended an AA meeting holding hands with a girl we mutually know. unfortunately and STUPIDLY, i got upset by this, and for the first time in my entire life.... i hit someone, him. i then went home. on wednesday this week, the police knocked my door and arrested me. it was such a strange experience, because i have never been introuble in my life! equally, you can't go around hitting people. they said it was domestic violence. on returning home that day, a man approached me and handed me papers. my ex has gone for full residence order and a prohibited steps order. the court date to confirm this is may 24th!! he made a statement saying that i was aggressive in drink and that my daughter was in danger. unfortunately he also has evidence of nasty texts that i have sent to him through out the year for various reasons. my behaviour has been unquestionable inappropriate, and i have to accept that. however, i am on the floor, distraut that my beautiful little girl, who needs her mummy, is being taken away!! PLEASE HELP. will i get her back, based on my behaviour above?? please give me some advice. i am going to see if i can get legal aid on monday, but someone please give me some hope PLEASE...