Would you apply for a job you used to hate?

[mosschops30]

Not as easy as it sounds so I'll give a bit of background.
When I qualified I went straight into Critical Care which with hindsight was probably not the most sensible thing.
I worked full time and I found it very stressful, overwhelming, terrifying, challenging etc etc.
When I found out I was pg I left for an easier job because I knew I wouldnt have coped with it being there.
My main issue was the shifts, it was half and half so I had to do 6 days a month and 6 nights, and I didnt like doing all the nights.
Some of the people there were arses but you get that anywhere Ive found out (cliquey-ness).

So after my mat leave I am unable to return to my job because of PTSD, I phoned my old boss and she said they were advertising soon, and now the jobs are out.
My options are:

1. Go for redeployment. HR are aware of my problems and will be looking to find me another suitable post. The downside of this is that after 12 weeks they can terminate my contract if I/they dont find anything.

1. Apply for this job and if I get it, to take it. The benefits of this would be the hours, I can do 24 hours in 2x12hr shifts pretty much of my choice although will be one day and one night but thats fine because losing hours will mean the nights will get me extra money. I would be going back to an area I am familiar with and a job that I enjoyed.

However its on a 12 month contract (apparently they are doing this so they can get rid of poor workers after 12 months). Its a high turnover so as long as I work hard and dont have oodles of sick time I imagine my contract would be renewed. I am also giving up my right to redeployment if I take a job before I return from mat leave.

So WWYD? TIA

do what because of the PTSD??

and thanks fio I am on the mend now. Still have some pain most days but am exercising again and eating well and really looking after myself.
Have also started legal proceedings now, but still not sure how I feel about that

Do you think the things you hated about the job previously would still make you hate it? It sounds like the shifts would not be a disadvantage any more. What about the stressful, overwhelming, terrifying part? Do you think you would cope better with it now?

If you think it would be a good job for you in your current circumstances, then go for it.

If it would be a second choice to redeployment in your previous job, then I'd stick with option 1. If the old place are doing 12 month contracts and have high turnover, then there will probably be other opportunities to go back there if you need to.

Can you do both? TBH I would apply for this one (option 2) and if this one fails, then go for redeployment (I would be scared of this one, with so many budget cuts and people without jobs, I wouldn't put my faith on HR doing the leg work...)

sorry alark dont quite get what you mean about redeployment in my previous job, do you mean redeployment from my current job?
There will be lots of opportunities to return to critical care because they advertise so regularly.
The problem with redeployment is that if nothing comes up in those 12 weeks then Im out of a job completely.

no fio I havent taken any sick leave as yet, Im still on mat leave until 2nd wk of June, only then would they put me on sick leave during the redeployment process

yes mongolia I can go for this job, if I dont get it I can still go for redeployment.

I was just wondering if anyone though 'you should never go back' as thats what dh thinks. However 2 x 12 hr shifts would suit me lovely now and ds2 would only have to be in one days childcare and I would get the rest of the week off (planning to do my night at the weekend so dh has kids and I get paid more IYKWIM)

oh and another thing other people Ive spoken to have said 'oh its different when youre part time because you dont get involved in all the work crap, you just go in, do your job and go home' is this generally true?

IF you think that would be good for you all, go ahead with it, you don't loose anything if you don't get it, you still have the redeployment to fall on.

And, it may be that now that you know the "ropes" that awful job is no longer so.

I don't think its a problem to go back to something, if the things you didn't like then are less of a problem now. And it sounds like that is the case, plus you are more experienced to deal with the full on nature of critical care.

And if you don't like it, it gives you a buffer while you look for something better

Im hoping thats how it would be mongolia. I think maybe my confidence will have improved and Im also not as scared to say 'HELP' when Im drowning Ive also learnt some transferable skills from my current job that I can take back there

CMOT thats a great attitude, I suppose I have to look on it as 12 months that i can use as a learning experience and also enables me to maximise the time with my family. If it doesnt work, by the end of the contract ds2 with be 18 months and I can look for something else.
My priority at the moment is not having a baby in full time childcare

And 12 months is nothing is it ? Less than 100 shifts really, so you could tick your way through those even if it was a bit dire. I took the job I'm in now, not knowing if it would work out at all (from small NHS hospital to large company, loads of travel), saying I'd do it for 2 years, like it or not, to get the experience. And 10 years later, it still doesn't seem that long.

Not sure about the part timers not getting so involved, but things are a lot less important (thinking of obnoxious colleagues, stupid admin etc here) when you only have to deal with them for two instances a week

Yes I think twice a week I could deal with the assholes
Im not so sure about 12 months not being long, the 6 months I worked there seemed like a lifetime although my priorities were different then and I also think I was a different person.

So I should apply then and see how it goes?