I’m writing this as I can’t sleep from anger and exhaustion. I have 1 small child who needs me and needs extra support developing. He just started nursery for the first time and I feel I need to be there to drop him off and pick him up if something goes wrong. However, I feel like I’m failing at mother’s duty because of my work. I work in a government industry which is an absolute nightmare at the moment. I travel over 2 hours every day by car as there are no trains and they expect me to stay overtime on top of my 10-12 hours shift. I work 4 days per week, not in a row. I get home at 9-10 pm and I try to cook meals for next days for my family. My partner helps and his job is much more chilled, but cooking, shopping and lots of other chores are my responsibility because my child is quite a fussy eater. While he does a lot of childcare. I tried to look for other jobs internally, but unfortunately is nothing closer than 1.5 hours each way, if anything available…On top of that, my manager is an absolute nightmare and everyone at work is under constant stress because of him. I requested to work part time and he rejected it 3 times, .the work load is insane and they just want more and more of us despite not having enough time to do all the extra admin required. I would try a new career, but I have no idea what, I’ve done this job for 8 years and I have good benefits , but is just getting so bad. Tonight my road home was closed for roadworks and I literally burst out crying in the car because it took me extra 30 minutes to get home and I was supposed to cook a full meal for tomorrow. How can I see any positive when I live under constant stress and a glass of wine is the only moment I have for myself at midnight?