First Father’s Day with no parents

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I’m forty and this is my first Father’s Day without any parents, lost my dad to a heart attack caused by his type 1 diabetes in 2020, my mum in March this year from cancer, it’s been a draining year and I didn’t really recognise my mum by the end, her personality had changed so much.

I have a wonderful husband, four amazing children and don’t have to work, financially set. Yet whilst everyone (kids, husband, in-laws) are all laughing and having fun in the garden. I’ve come up to my bedroom just feeling so sad. Some of my friends still have Grandparents, I have an amazing sister but she lives five hours away, other than that we have no family. I know I should be downstairs enjoying everyone being together but I don’t want to. Don’t really know what the point of this post is, it anyone get it?

I’m feeling it too 💙

I saw a lovely quote on Insta today “Maybe in another lifetime I’ll get to be your daughter for a little bit longer”.

I was lucky enough to have my parents into my late 40’s (dad) & early 50’s (mum) but it still breaks my heart a little every day 💔

Thank you, that’s beautiful! Nice to know I’m not alone

The first everything is hard - first Christmas, first birthday.

And it must be hard putting a brave face on & trying to celebrate as well

No. My dad died in 2008 and my children’s dad in 2009 and Father’s day is just another day now. Sure I think about my father, I guess my kids think about theirs (though they were very young when he died). I mean sure some people have them some don’t. That’s life. I can’t get caught up in ‘what might have been’. But if you feel sad on today in particular then no one is going to criticise you. Sit with your sadness and remember your dad.