Perimenopausal angry b**ch

[Bettybooler]

Hi I’m 44 and suspect I may be perimenopausal. My most concerning symptom is my mood, for a couple of years now I’ve found myself getting more and more angry and snappy. I don’t seem to have any patience and quite honestly am finding it an effort to be nice to most people!! I find myself going against people’s opinions just to annoy them because I’m feeling grumpy and it almost feels good, but then I feel guilty for being such a b**ch. I also hate myself, how I look, what I’ve not achieved in life, the way I’m behaving! I’m almost intolerant of my own self as well as other people. I don’t know who I am, what I want or who I want to be with. Argh please tell me someone else has felt this.

I hear you OP! But I started HRT about 6 months ago and feel like a new woman! It isn't quite the magic bullet (some symptoms are still there albeit to a lesser degree) but the rage has definitely calmed! It might be worth talking to your GP...

Hrt! It turns the dial down on the crappy symptoms. Be prepared to have to mess around with dose for a while and then again a little further in

HRT. I literally told my GP I was frightened of going to prison. I've never had rages like it, they lasted hours over the smallest things.

A guy cut me up in my car and it took me four hours to stop shaking with fury and everything I had not to get out the car at the lights and smash his window....

Op hugs, I feel for you, I hear people saying they love not giving two shits but I hear myself in work and see how ‘new me’ is taken to and I think ‘if only you’d known me before I became a cranky, cold cow’ (I don’t snap so much as shut up and possibly purse my lips🙈). If people from my old jobs met me I honestly think they’d think I’d had a brain transplant!!

I was absolutely VILE at this stage in my life. In fact my colleagues got together and told me if I didn't sort myself out they would refuse to work with me.
I had no idea at the time I was so awful.
So I started HRT and was soon as sweet as anything.
I also got divorced because I couldn't stand my husband any more.

I'm older (51) and my symptoms started about 18 months ago. It got to the point I actually thought I was having a nervous breakdown, rather than anything else. It took my husband telling me it was most likely menopause for me to go to the doctors! I'd basically said to him that I wanted a divorce :(

I started on Evorel 25mg, moved up to 50mg, then 75mg and asked if I could try the gel instead. I think it's been about 5 months now on the gel and whilst I'm still getting the odd symptom here and there, it's a massive leap from where I was.

As others have said, it's not a silver bullet and does take time re dosage and types, but I'd probably have been locked up by now if I wasn't on HRT.

Thank you to everyone who has commented on my post, it’s a relief to hear others have felt this way, I’ve been feeling so horrid!!
I hope I’m doing this right as I’ve never been on here before so I’m not sure how to reply to u all. I will find a menopause clinic and have a chat with them 🤞🏻