Tired of fighting anymore .. just so tired now..

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Battling away daily to work out paying off debt. Constant effort/thoughts/ideas. Working all the hours I can. I think I've saved a bit .. but the money then gets gobbled up elsewhere. Every. Single. Month
Constantly sorting/tidying the house. Its never-ending. No one else does it. I can't live in squalor.
Looking at the all the cosmetic repairs the house needs .. that never get done.
All the things we need to replace in the house .. DH won't/ can't make a decision .. ever.. on anything. So it never gets done
Pipelines dreams of moving to our dream location. Literally selling up, paying off debts, taking exit package from work... That will never happen.

Dieting/gym/healthy eating .. the weight never drops off. I have to literally eat 1 meal a day to lose anything. An endless fight. I'll never get up goal weight at this rate.

I'm so very tired of fighting. I have nothing left.

I'm. 51

That sounds exhausting. It sounds as if you are carrying everything. Has it always been like this?

I am not surprised that you are exhausted OP. Can you sit down with DH and outline what needs to changeor even ask him what he thinks needs to change? I know you say he doesn't like making decisions but I would not be happy having to make all the decisions tbh. Would life be easier if you separated and had a smaller property to take care of? If your children make mess they should be made to clean up after themselves. I'd also get a cleaner. You are not the hired help. Can u go away overnight alone? Book into a Premier Inn, have a nice shower, read a book and eat snacks. I would do this regularly. Good luck with things OP

Why does no one else do it? You sound beaten down, I’m sorry things are difficult 💐

You sound like my friend. The problem is she and her husband have never worked together as a team. They don't plan. He has these grand ideas that never develop into anything concrete and she's in the background trying to hold everything together. They are not flexing together as one strong muscle 💪