Father of my 2 young kids and stepdad to my teen has relapsed on cocaine again.
I left the family home 1.5 years ago with my kids and was put into temporary accommodation and now thankfully have a long term stable home. He was dealing drugs and I found drugs laying around the house numerous times. After years of lies and relapses I left for the kids safety and for my sanity.
Fast forward to now he had been doing so well. I started allowing unsupervised contact and we even went on holiday as a family. He was clean 1 year. I was so proud and considering giving our relationship another go.
I went to collect my kids from his one morning last week. Him and the kids were asleep on the couch.. they were in pjs, nappies full of pee and the house was a mess. I walked through to the kitchen and found a plate with lines of cocaine on the top shelf. I also seen powder residue on his dining table.
I’m absolutely heartbroken, angry, all the emotions! It turns out he’s been using for months… I removed the kids and told him they will not be back to his house and all contact will be supervised until he sorts his shit out. I recently started a new job and relied on hi. Helping with pick ups and the odd nightshift. I had a meeting with my boss yesterday and thankfully they have managed to change my role and hours so I can do all drop off and pick ups from nursery.
I don’t know why I’m posting I think I just need to vent. I made a post on here over a year ago and had a lot of people telling me to leave.. well I did and now he has put my kids in danger again.. I don’t think I can ever go back now.. thanks for reading