DM died a few months ago. Df 10 years ago. I used to pop into her a few days in the week after work. Since her death I have changed working hours to pm, built up a new boring routine in the morning and a weekly routine where I do certain things certain days. Dc are going thru exams. The routine gets me through. I have dh who is ok most of the time but can be overbearing but if I won the lottery I would get a separate property and home help and live there.
I inherited a bit from dm incl jewellery which is a bit of a novelty.
I don't know what I want from this thread other than note down how I feel.