I went to the gym today for the first time in around 6 years. I was so nervous but have been wanting to get back into it for a long time. I finally overcame my fear today and did it and I am beaming tbh, I am so proud of myself for finally taking a step in the right direction to regain my sense of self.
I'm trying to build up a self-care plan to heal from various trauma in my life. Today was one of many hurdles to come in achieving that, and I just feel so good I was able to do it. I was so frigging anxious going in that i was planning on just walking back out. But I put my big girl pants on, took a deep breath and did it anyway!
When I used to go to the gym, aged 21-23, I was always all about the gains and results and not much else. I was going 5 days a week and exhausted myself and deep down I hated it, and always thought I never looked good enough. This time around, 6 years on with 2 kids to show for it, my focus now is more about listening to my body and understanding what it can handle and what it can't. My goal is less about gaining muscle and general appearance, and more about appreciating what my body can do, how good it makes me feel to exercise and progressing in what I can do each time that I go, feeling better each time that I go. The aesthetic results are a bonus.
My top 3, short-term goals are:
- To maintain consistency with going to the gym,
- Fix my diet up a bit to facilitate this and feel better and be healthier,
- To make a conscious effort to be more present with my kids (I feel I am present a lot already, but I often feel I get distracted with housework and life admin)
So, what is something that you have achieved recently? And do you have any goals for the (short term) future? It can be anything from getting out of bed in the morning to climbing mount everest - an achievement is an achievement!