I feel as though I have never had a normal life. I didn’t have many friends as a teenager, and I never really went out drinking when I was at university. I have struggled on and off in making and keeping friends. I have also never really kicked off my career.
I am trying really hard to reverse everything that’s happened, but my anxiety is telling me that a good life is out of reach. I am trying to pass my practical test and applying for career jobs, but it feels pointless.
My boyfriend is the only good thing about my life. I love him very much, but worried that he will either
A) leave me because I am pessimistic or
B) I will become dependent on him
How can somebody in my position feel hopeful for change and not look back and think it’s over for me?