Navigating a new life (single parent)

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I don’t know the best thread to post this. I became a single mother recently (infidelity in the marriage on his part) to 2 young children. One of which has some medical issues so adds additional stress. The children still see their dad but they are mostly with me. I was angry for a long time and upset as well. Now I feel almost emotionless. I don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing with my life, I feel a combination of lonely and overwhelmed all at the same time. The GP wanted to put me on anti depressants but I don’t feel depressed I don’t think. I just feel like I am going through the motions and always paddling away but never really doing anything of value. I feel very alone but not necessarily lonely as I like being by myself on the whole. I’m not even sure why I’m posting, just wondering if it gets any easier and if it’s normal to feel this way?

Yes! It is completely normal. I was in your exact position 2 years ago. There is light at the end of the tunnel. You're grieving the end of your marriage and the life you thought you would have.
Can you access some talking therapy?
Make things in day to day life as easy for yourself as possible whilst you're working through the emotions and navigating your new life with the children.

I have had 2 sessions with a counsellor, it’s hard to tell if it’s helping or not. I just feel I have no focus and I keep thinking I’ll do this and I’ll do that then I don’t do anything and end up feeling like a bit of a failure.