Another life

[custardlover]

Do you ever imagine a completely different life? How it would be on totally different paths?

Don't get me wrong, I am very lucky with and happy in my life. I don’t regret or wish I was elsewhere at all - so grateful to have love, children, nice home and job etc.

However, in some daydreams I am a small cafe owner by the sea / a ceramicist working in Portofino / a lavender farmer in the West Country…

(I guess this is what novels are for and explains why I love books like The Midnight Library, The Husbands, Life after Life etc!)

I look back on decisions I have made and consider how my life might be different I had made a different decision. For example many years ago i had the option to stay in a job where the manager liked me and was proactive on helping me rise through the company or move away with my bf and transfer my job. I chose to go away with my bf, unfortunately my new manager did not like me and was not interested on helping me progress. I said to my bf (now husband) if I'd stayed in Street I'd be manager by now, to which he quite rightly pointed out if you'd stayed in Street you'd still be in Street.

I do live this.
I commented on an other thread about it.
I rent a small cheap bedsit/ studio abroad only has a room tiny kitchen, shower sink and loo.

I go as much as I can cheap flights, I have bare minimum there, and knowone knows about it.

When I arrive its perfect peaceful and away from life in a way, I go for walks coffee, just being me without being me if you get what I mean.

I sometimes think we live in a multiverse where everything happens simultaneously, including all possible outcomes. So, say, if I nearly fell off my bike, there's an ongoing version of reality where I did fall off my bike, etc and I just happen to be experiencing the nicer version (and am glad of it!) 🤯

The sliding doors analogy is how it works for me. We all make choices every day that take us down one path or another. In the moment you’re making the best choice you can and you don’t know if it’s going to work out or not.
I’m happy with the choices I’ve made and I don’t think I’d want another life, I’d have to compromise on the things that make this one good.
A bit of daydreaming doesn’t hurt but in reality I wouldn’t do anything differently.