I am so broken and lost about what way to take my work life.

[BabyWally]

I work in care but I am so eager and desperate to get out from it and work in a different job.

I used to love what I did helping people but I hate it now. I work for one family who has really took a massive shit on employment laws. If it was up to them I would be working 2 or 3 weeks solid before I get one day off. Or I would be working days from working morning until the middle of the nighttime. It's all for supporting a family who don't want to spend even one night with their disabled family member. It's me cleaning up shit nearly every 5 minutes with no respite or break.

I could write a book on the abuses that I experienced.

The only positive about this role is the location in that it is closed to my home.

My mental health is suffering now because it's work that is making me so sick of it. I am dreading the summer time because it will be a summer filled holidays, dinners, concerts, matches and every other excuse for the family to maintain full time jobs and social activities while it's me within their home with fuck all of a break. I can't work like that any more.

If I put this energy into a corporate establishment I would get thousands in pay every month. My pay is shit. I get paid one sum whether I work 40 hours or 90s.

I never signed up for that in my contract.

I am desperate to leave care work.

But I am also depressed. I don't know what to do or how to take my life or what direction to take my work life to.

I looked into other work briefly but all that's open to me is retail and hospitality options along the bus route that I live by. There's nothing wrong with these per se. I did do these when I was younger and I found working with the public can be bad.

I think one of the hardest obstacles is that I don't know how to drive and of I did I wouldn't be able to afford to put a car on the road.

I am just so lost and torn about what way to go.

I would love to work in a factory but I am relying on buses and there a factory hub about 16 miles away. It is just going to be difficult to get in and out from it.

There are some courses I am interested in but I am so nervous about doing any studying at middle age life stage.

Retail would at least get you out of there, pay a stable wage and contracted hours. You're probably working for less than minimum hourly wage if you are working like you say no matter what they pay you.

Wouldn't regular hours and no pisstaking help you if you want to also study online?

Have a look at Entitled To should your employment cease, you may get benefits.

But tbh you have the power here. They won't find anyone else to do what you do. So put your foot down and they will change their attitude.

I know a lot of retail where I am from has 0 contract hours. Which means that you don't get anything regular but you have to be on call so to speak.

That's worse.

I would be interested in Primark and I did look in my local city but there's only part time available.

Although if I got 30 hours at minimum wage it would be pay me a better than what I have now.

Like I worked all of this week and went into work yesterday and had to stay overnight. Then work ALL FUCKING DAY LONG.

I am coming so close to harming myself or others. I am really having a mental health crisis. My current work is slavery.

I know it feels like you're stuck, and I do appreciate that leaving a job can create a lot of financial problems, really I do. But bigger things are at stake. You can make money elsewhere, you WILL get a job elsewhere, and leaving will probably motivate you to make sure you get a new job.

Don't risk your mental health for any job. Leave now, and take back control of your life. Do not go back to that job. Get your doctor to write you off with stress if they make a fuss.

💯 @jellyfish798

@BabyWally Absolutely go to your GP and tell them exactly what you have just said. Get signed off before it gets any worse. No job is worth that. Quit and put in a claim for UC immediately. You aren't in a fit state to work.

What courses are you interested in?

It sounds like you are being paid under minimum wage?

I know you feel restricted to something near your home but what if the pay was better? You could in the short term get an uber part the way maybe.

Start looking at what’s out there. Apply. You can always turn it down if you want later. To me it sounds like options would be good right now.

I’ve worked in retail working a 13 hour contract to start off with.As soon as I was up to speed I could pick up extra shifts working whenever I wanted.and my contract number of hours went up using the last four weeks shifts to as an idea what to offer me.
I could also get my shifts covered easily as everyone can see what’s available to cover.
It seemed to me that everyone started on a tiny contract so that if your unreliable,late stand around etc you can’t pick up more shifts and don’t pass your probation.
I would ask about overtime at the interview as Primark seems to be rammed all day everyday.
Your current hours are illegal as it sounds like your working for less than minimum wage as well and affecting your mental health.

Hoping you have had a better day today and gotten some much needed support OP.