18 monrhs ago I left the job I adored in a tertiary hospital because it became so stressful and dangerous with staff shortages (it was a 40 bedded ward) plus a long commute. I was in that job for 9 years but it broke me. I did interview several times for the next band up and never got the job because I can’t interview well. Nerves get the better of me.
I now work in a smaller hospital. On a small paeds ward. I do enjoy the job. Though I seem to pick up every virus bloody going. Currently on my 50th cold in 12 months (maybe a slight exaggeration)
anyway to keep my skills up I do overtime on a similar ward I worked in previously but a much much smaller version (9 beds)
they have offered the next band up secondment for 6 months. But because of staffing deficits my management team won’t release me. If fought it for two weeks now. But it’s still a no and I’m more sad about it that I thought I’d be. It’s an opportunity for me that will never come up again, I can step into the role with support and guidance without an interview. Perfect solution for me really
no real point to this post really. DH is away for work for 4 months. My friends are prob sick of hearing me moan about it, and I’m feeling shite with another cold.
just feeling sad about it. I miss the other work terribly but cannot go back to the previous place. I honestly feel I’m being held back because of staff shortages which as we all know are always there in the nhs.